First Thoughts on My Leaving Church
Last Friday, I resigned my position as Director of Care and Worship Planning at Elmhurst Christian Reformed Church (ECRC). As someone who loves a good scandal and a shocking bit of dirt, I almost feel bad that I have nothing for you, no juicy morsels to offer.
I wasn’t asked to leave. I neither committed nor uncovered any huge moral failings (I suppose, unless you rightfully consider loving a good scandal a moral failing!).
I resigned for reasons related to my calling and in obedience to the Spirit’s promptings. While I’ll say more about the specifics of my leaving in the coming weeks, for now, here’s the thank you note I wrote to my beloved church that explains a bit of my path:
Dear Elmhurst CRC Friends:
For well over a year now, I’ve sensed God telling me it was time to move on. One of our wise elders calls this a “spirit of release,” a term apparently used in the Black church. However, like many folks before me, I tried to ignore God’s call.
After all, I love this church. I’ve been a member here since I was eight years old (that’s forty-two years!). Rafi and I were married in this church. Our babies were baptized here.
I’ve had the privilege of serving this church in many capacities—most notably, perhaps, as Director of Care and Worship Planning. In this role, I’ve worked with some of the best people ever. I’ve had conversations and times of prayer with folks that blessed me beyond belief. I’ve seen generosity and compassion that still astounds me.
This church has shaped me and my faith. What and how I believe are because of this church. It’s here that I found space to question and wonder and hear from God. It’s because of the Reformed perspective that I believe deeply and truly that this whole world is God’s and that nothing or no one is beyond God’s reach or Christ’s redeeming power.
Elmhurst CRC is an amazing, Spirit-filled place. To say I’m grateful for a lifetime of learning and growth in this church is an understatement.
And yet, God keeps poking and pulling and making it clear that in order to step more fully into my calling, I need to step out of this role. My last day will be Friday, February 10.
Thank you for this amazing opportunity. I’ll keep praying for you and cheering you all on.
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